Spirituality is the first spoke on the wheel of Primary Foods, when assessing our Circle of Life.
My spirituality has gone through many phases over the years. I had let a lot of my practices go dormant for a while and then, in the wake of personal distress, I was guided to pick them up again…and expand on them. I originally turned to spirit to try and get answers for unexplained things.
Since then, I have been on a rollercoaster of a spiritual healing journey. Highs, lows and everything in between. I’ve gotten back into meditation and crystals and incense, reiki, and well, you name it. I’ve had some incredible, unexplainable, experiences which keep bringing me back to spirit, even when I feel disillusioned.
I’ve met so many other incredible women on a similar journey and am so grateful for the support because it is not an easy road. Through my research I have learned that we have signed up for all of this when it comes to an ascension journey. One of my friends and I regularly have lamented, “Why would I sign up for this???” LOL But true awakenings are indeed messy and heartbreaking.
I have been exploring so many different healing modalities, including getting back into my herbal teas and medicine (which has led to me starting and expanding my herbal business out in my community over the past year), and I recently started going back to church to sing in a choir again. This has been a wonderful bridge back to my essence since music and singing is a very spiritual (and healing) experience for me. With all of this, I am constantly trying to learn how to balance spirit and earth.
It has been such a gift, having spirit to focus on in the wake of loss and confusion! Filling my toolbox with knowledge of self and healing. Even when I am in the ebb, not in the flow.
I find myself approaching another threshold after a challenging pandemic year. Sometimes when I have a major internal shift, I expect my outer world to immediately change (patience isn’t always a virtue). I also struggle with control issues when I need to relax and open my eyes to the fact that what I am praying for might present itself differently (and possibly better) than what I have imagined. Letting go is not an easy thing to do, and everything can change in the blink of an eye. We cannot control anything but ourselves. I have found energy clearing and traditional counseling to be wonderful tools for finding clarity and balance. Spirit and Earth.
When it comes right down to it, we are either aligning with Love or Fear. And most of the time fear feels more familiar and, bizarrely, more comfortable. I still strive to always align with love in all ways. Especially towards myself.